Sunday, January 23, 2011 20:01
These two days I have been doing a lot of self-searching, trying hard to spot possible mistakes I've made to have him act the way he did. Perhaps I've really gone over the line some time(s) in the past, thinking that it's a harmless piece of joke.
In any case, the revelation was shocking. Apparently too many a time I've said demeaning things in the name of jokes, and too many a time I've represented him as things/names that just don't do him justice. I know I'm capable of doing things like these, so I stood there and took in everything he said, and hopefully after saying what needed to be said it would make him feel better.
But the main reason I kept quiet was more of the element of shock. I was shocked at the fact that he actually took them to heart. Worse still, all these while I had no idea that these have been pent up.
It's funny how the relationship between two people can undergo drastic changes overnight, as if it's a roller-coaster ride somewhat. But then I'm tired of explaining and reasoning things out - have been doing them excessively this whole week - so I'm just gonna let nature take its course and surrender it all to fate.
Whatever will be, will be. Que Sera Sera.
Saturday, January 22, 2011 09:31
Was feeling both vain and naked on the nails, so I embarked on another beauty regime. The end result looked like this:
I have not told you the complete story. I had in mind what people would call 'French with designs' initially, but for some reason all my tips looked like they've been dipped haphazardly in white paint! For the record, I have never worn French - not because I don't like French, but because every time I do a French, I have it removed shortly after (practise, practise!). This time was no different, so I removed them immediately after they were done.
Then I thought of taking the easy way out and tried flowers instead. The foolproof method would definitely using a dotting tool to get the job done, but no, I wasn't cool with dwelling in my comfort zone all the time, especially not when the night was still young and I had a lot of time to spare. So I tried using a brush and whatever nail polish that was in my stash to paint. The flowers did not turn out as realistic as I wanted them to be (although I know by your standards they will pass), so they ended up dissolved in acetone too.
Discouraged, yes, but I wasn't gonna end the night with my nails as naked as they first started out. So I told myself, whatever I'm going to draw will stay on and I'm not gonna remove anything anymore, so it has to either be up to standard or I'll be wearing gross nails for four days.
And this again, proved that I am one who performs better under pressure (:
