Recess week #2 aka campus-wide E-learning week is approaching its end. Soon, everyone will go back to everyone's almost-rigid routines and I'll revert to my "snooze alarm -> wake up -> panic -> wash up in great haste -> to lesson I go" mornings.
In any case today was about to be a normal LEARNING day with my rabbit, until SHE came within my sight at science canteen. The sight of her silhouette evoked such a strong rejection within me that I almost muttered "BITCH". Of course, the piece of memory in the past that trailed continued to ruin my beautiful day.
To let you know HER better, I ought to first describe my first impression of HER. When I first saw HER, I knew SHE was the queen bee type. Blessed with pronounced cheekbones, a pair of doe eyes and nosebridge of just the right height, her face is one that is difficult to forget but easy to be confused with other "just another
chiobu". I admit I added a little of my own sentiments in the last part of the previous sentence, but fortunate enough for her she had almost all a girl wants on her face. So yes, initially I thought she was pretty.
I knew just what type of girl she was right from the start. I have met many. They are usually the ones who make the worst remarks about others to make themselves a notch
cooler, or feed their ego by having everyone around them do their biddings. Of course it takes two to clap and she wouldn't be a queen bee without her minions constantly buzzing around like slaves, but since this post is about HER I shall be nice and spare her minions.
But what I did not know was how blunt and blatant she could actually be towards a fellow countryman aka me. I know I say mean things too but I don't say things that stab right into people's hearts or at least, I have the courtesy to not break that person's heart right in front of him/her, right in front of everybody.
I could remember clearly that sentence SHE said that brought me down. Ever had anyone said anything right in your face that made you feel so bad that you just wanna break down on the spot or just jump down a building? At that point in the past, this was exactly how I felt. Never in my life had everything that made me, me, been shattered to pieces just because of something someone said.
"你们怡保出产的,品种是跟我们吉隆坡人不一样的"
Seriously, if you don't find something funny, you can well just keep quiet. How does saying such a hurtful thing make YOU better or more human than me? How is it even justified?
If you have trouble understanding the chinese above, she was actually saying that I am from a different (a grade lower) BREED, and she was implying at MY TOWN, IPOH,
breeds second grade product aka girls when compared to the oh-so-great KL, where she comes from.
Seriously, bitch, we are all humans. We don't differentiate ourselves by our BREEDS. In what era are we living now, I wonder, to still have a certain
class of people looking down on other groups? Have you NOT progressed in civilization at all? Tell me, if you are a normal person, would you not be indignant when such a hurtful remark was passed to you?
I was so upset at the time that I did not retaliate. Under normal circumstances I will, but at that point in history, I was so hurt, SO F*CKING HURT that all I wanted was a corner for me to cry.
Loser, I know. But the impact of this incident is so great, that even til today as I am recounting to you, my heart still bleeds and my eyes still well up.
Now you know why I say, the biggest snob I've ever met come from my homecounrty, from a city called KUALA LUMPUR which everybody loved. Well, everybody except me now.
