It's my first lab session and the thing that linked Chemistry to me was pure chaos.
Eight months void of titration, and I could not even gather all my apparatus without looking at others.
Eight months void of lab work, and I have lost almost all my accuracy and titration skills.
And eight months without stepping into the lab, I have forgotten how to stay calm and not get stressed out by every other person who seemed to know what they are doing in the lab.
Everything that could go wrong went wrong today. Even when I had religiously followed the protocol and pushed my patience beyond limits, something had to go wrong and something did go wrong, resulting in nothing else but an unconvincing titre value.
When I first printed out the lab manual, I never thought undergraduate lab work was gonna be this direct - it's just the same old titration we do everytime. But after I cleared the lab, I never thought titration - the same old titration we do everytime - was gonna be THIS agonizing.
Or perhaps it's just me. Because the guy on my right and the girl on my left seemed to be progressing at their comfortable pace and more discouragingly, they seemed to be confident of their results. So why was mine so problematic!
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Sometimes, I really don't understand people in general. I was stood up on for some reasons I deemed to be lame. What started out to be a pleasant surprise was unintentionally thwarted, by whom I would not like to know. But the worse had yet to come. Just when the right number was finalized and so was everything else, a call came just to inform me that everything - literally everything that's related - was screwed.
By just a brilliant idea.
Call me petty, like I'd care. It's not as if they are the minority. And I certainly would not be eligible for project Frankenstein so what is so freaky about having dinner with me? I don't see what the issue here is, but it is an issue for me now.
What appeared to be a casual rejection, when done in big numbers, really gave me a hard time and I so don't appreciate the excuses made. For one you thwarted what was supposed to be a surprise. Then you stand me up. Listen, what is so difficult to just reject early when you aren't interested in having dinner with me? Why do you have to just pangseh me on critical timing like this?
While it is indeed human nature to conggregate with our own kinds, I don't see why globalisation hasn't had effects on your community yet. Because when I asked around, people around me were fine with crossing to another community.
Oh, turned out that we are the Frankensteins instead.
As you can see, the more I write, the more I fume. So I'll just stop here before I burn my room down.
