So, it is coming to light. All the reasons behind delayed replies or no replies at all. All the reasons behind the indifference and lack of enthusiasm at the other side of the line. As well as all the confusions I get when the present is so different from the past.
I get it. As busy people we are we have commitments we can never finish counting. That makes phone conversation hasty and at the same time, empty, because our minds are still thinking about different commitments we have, than to be focusing on the person on the other side of the line. So what used to be a natural past-time has morphed into a habitual yet mandatory socializing session - a 'Hi' 'Bye' 'Good morning' and 'Good night' routine.
Yet we must have gotten so busy, that our schedules have been so utterly packed, that such mandatory socializing sessions have become unappealing to continue anymore, and soon there's no more 'Good mornings' because, well, it should be understood that by the time the clock strikes eleven everybody should have woken up. There's no more 'Hello how are you today?' because idiot will know that no news is good news and well, everybody just repeats their daily routine so there's nothing to answer the 'how are you today' question other than 'I'm fine thank you'. Ah, then at first the only remaining thing that's sweet is the goodnight wishes. But then again we must have gotten so tired by the time we are going to bed, that the task of picking up the phone and typing a message becomes extraordinarily laborious - good enough to kill.
So in the end, we just forget about it. Because no news is good news, isn't it? So we take it as everything's good and pretty over the other side.
Ah, so I finally know the reason behind such prolonged silence from the other side.
...I have lots of commitments... not because I want it.Ah, a busy man, is he not. Finally it's clear. He's got so many commitments, so many such that it's a chore to share.
And amongst the commitments of his, there isn't any by the name 'IVY'.I can see clearly now that the fog is gone. I'm not offering myself to be hurt, anymore.
