I saw my sis's tagg just now, so I went over to her place. Instincts told me she must have updated her blog, and for the n-th time, my instincts proved themselves right. And I was stunned at what she wrote. So intellectual. And yes, it's precisely the kind of stuff I need, to get inspired and motivated. It's precisely the kind of stuff I need, to shove away all negatives that cast a shadow upon happiness. No wonder I don't seem to find any these few days.
"Happiness is a voyage, not a destination.
There's no better time to be happy than
NOW."
I wish I can describe exactly how these words above struck me when I first read it. As if by a weight-lifting charm, I felt weightless. Hovering in space, light as a feather.
There are so many things to be happy about.
I'm glad I have such a cute pyjamas of pink, which never fails to give me sweet dreams.
I'm glad I'm not invisible to quen seng.
I'm glad I found my passion back today.
I'm glad I've got so many shoulders to lean on when my knees gave way.
Yes, the past doesn't matter anymore. I'm glad I knew the entire story, and I know I won't be a toy. Be a fool no more!
In an attempt to keep my distance from this hostel, I went over to the Kallang McD to spend my late afternoon studying (that explains why I'm now here for so long). Ok don't ask why I bother to come back to hostel and not stay at Parkway McD after our lunch. I won't tell you how unglam it was to walk around with TJ-dalmatian-skirt. I also won't tell you the new design was courtesy of Kanitta who did something unglam too. So the essence is that being vain I decided to make a detour back to DHSH, so that if I decided to go out later, I'll be going out in a more glam outfit:)
Apparently my definition of 'glamour' was questionable because I went to McD in my Sec3 class tee and NY shorts-.-' But! Guess what I discovered the moment I stepped into McD? At my favourite area, there sat a guy. Ok not just any ordinary guy. It was the very guy I saw when I went to study in that McD two nights ago, when the hostel sank into total darkness. Hmm. Two days ago, he was there. Two days later, I saw him again. In the afternoon. And he looks like those guys who spends half an hour in front of the mirror, kicking up a big fuss over himself so that he looks impressive. Never did I expect this kind of guys to be found studying in McD, and to be found studying in the same McD for so many days!
I just could not stop noticing him. My legs automatically brought me to my favourite table, which to my delight/pleasant surprise, was just in front of his! Haha... wonder if he ever recognized me like how I recognized him... Oh such a vain thought of mine!
I was saying, I finally found my passion for Chem back. Perhaps last year I just wasn't in the right mind. I lost the interest almost completely and consequently did really badly for the subject. SubjectS, in fact. As I was doing those challenging thermochem questions, I could almost feel the fuel burning, driving me further to other questions. The thrill at completing each subquestion brought back confidence - something I lost along the way last year.
Perhaps it was sudden enlightenment. Perhaps it was Joyce's post. But whatever it was, I feel more positive of what's gonna happen tomorrow. Hmm... Maybe another McD trip to boost my spirits higher:)
