Until this morning that I finally realized sleep really does wonders! For unknown reasons I was reminded of some sour pasts last night, so I tried doing all sorts of things to distract myself, to preoccupy my mind. I played mahjong on my laptop, purposely discarded all useful tiles to lose the game as hard as possible. I tried to imagine all unhappiness as the money I had during the game, quickly diminishing with every game I lost. Then I played pool with Anurad, Jessie and Pear, trying to send all frustrations into the holes with the balls. I tried everything, but once I finished the mahjong games, the pool games, I was brought back to square one. The square one which all my frustrations and unhappiness started. It felt as if I had not done a thing to make myself feel better.
And in the end, I went to sleep.
The next morning, my frustrations were gone!
So the next time you see me sleeping more than anyone else, don't call me a pig. I may be in the process of forgetting some memories. Don't wake me up either. Let nature take its course.
When I was still lying on my bed before I finally got my lazy butt off the bed, my mind swirled around moments of the past. Moments which I miss, such as those times where we had to rush to the lockers to get our test tubes before Bio prac after swimming PE. Moments such as sitting around the table and crap about child upbringing.
Moments. Just moments.
