Tuesday, January 30, 2007 23:24
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no I won't give in
Keep holdin' on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say (repeat)
Nothing you can do
And there's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend ah ah
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah
-Avril Lavigne, Keep Holding On
What keeps you holding on? What is your motivation to continue living your life as it is now?
Thanks for those who stood by me and kept me holding on. Or rather, you guys held me through thick and thin, never once loosening your grips.
For life, my friends. This is our pact.
Monday, January 29, 2007 23:37
Friendship is one amazing thing. A blessing to one’s life, I would say. Be blessed with a true friend is better than a lifetime supply of gold bars.
Alright, I think I’m lying. Who doesn’t want a LIFETIME SUPPLY of GOLD BARS man?!
But for two people to meet and become friends is not something easy. It takes a good deal of chances and fate. Therefore I’ll do all I can, to maintain a true friendship.
“I see babies crying
I watch them grow
They learn much more
Than I’ll ever know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world…”
So calming in the night…
Sunday, January 28, 2007 20:56
*Kiss Goodbye*
Not only the song, but in reality also. How comforting would it be, to kiss goodbye with faith that it’s not goodbye after all.
So much happened in a short space of three days. Three days may seem short, but to sit down here and sort out this mesh of entangled thoughts is surely overwhelming. And to put them all in words, outlining every detail that made me in the pink of my mood is simply next to impossibility.
Despite the impossibility, it’s my duty to pen down my thoughts as far as possible.
Friday marked the end of yet another school week. But due to the impending Bio test my happy hours were marred by worries of not being able to comprehend my lecture notes, let alone taking the test myself. As you might have guessed, yes, I slept during lecture. There are two cycles in photosynthesis – the light and dark cycle. I was awake during the whole light cycle, but sank straight into my dreams in the dark cycle (fits in, huh?) What’s best? The lecturer actually finished the entire dark cycle in half a lecture! Therefore I missed the entire dark cycle. And I thought, well, I might as well study myself then. And whoala! I was stuck at the same page after a long time trying to make some sense out of it. I actually had a second chance to redeem myself, because the lecturer repeated the dark cycle to us again, in a separate lecture of course. But hell! I was so overloaded after what she taught, that I slept again when she talked about dark cycle.
Brilliant, isn’t it?
So the fear of not being able to catch any balls in photosynthesis drove me to do as much homework as possible on Friday night. I was surprisingly productive. Applause please.
Community work right in the morning on Saturday. It was the Cranes to Grains project. This is something much more meaningful compared to merely donating to the box. You are reaching out, as in literally, to those in need. Seeing their smiles across their faces was simply spiritually rewarding.
Flea market! It was drizzling a little when laogong and me reached cine. But the weather did not deter us from shopping craze at all! Things were going out at flat low prices! The whole process was simply enjoyable beyond description – going around examining piles and piles of clothes, the tingling sensation when you found something extraordinary among the common, and the best of all, getting the best price offered! Just one slight disappointment, when I went back to buy one particular top, the lady sold it out already! It’s so rare to find something which strikes me, and I just let the opportunity slip right through my fingers just because I went to see something else. *sigh* perhaps it’s fated. All in all, I was satisfied with what I bought.
Had a night full of fun (and cards) with the J1s. They are a bunch of kids so full of fun. We talked about a lot of things during rounds of bridge and dai di. Eventually it evolved to forfeit games. Basically it’s BlackJack, but after one person lost for three times, he will have to do a dare. Lose another three more times, and he would have to tell a truth. Yeah, a ‘mutated’ truth or dare. Ser Keong was the first to do a dare. Miss Stupidity suggested confessing to the cartoon on a vending machine. Xiaoqiang (ser keong) had to repeat what Miss Stupidity said, and he had to say them to the cartoon. Hilarious, I tell you, and the entire process was videoed with Ming’s phone. Which reminded me, that I’ve gotta take it from Ming some day later.
The next person was Nelson. This time he was to kiss Ming. The entire process was again, videoed by Miss Stupidity. We made him confess with our words and kiss Ming. The video sent everybody to giggling fits towards the end, where Nelson got kicked away when he was about to kiss Ming. In the end he really did! OMG! Those who want the video can get it from me:)
And I’ll remember the walk along ECP with Aulia today! The talks we had, the paths we walked upon, and the times he got so uptight whenever a dog approaches! I’m sorry man, but I love dogs! Hahaha next time I’ll ‘protect’ you from approaching dogs yeah!
As you can see, my weekend was so full of fun times. The discouraging fact? It’s Monday tomorrow, a schoolday coupled with group PE.
But another encouraging fact? Weekends come soon after weekdays!
Friday, January 26, 2007 20:43
"Keep holdin' on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
And There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through"
-Keep Holding On, Avril Lavigne
I reiterate. We'll make it through.
When you turn around, it's touching to see that there are still people to watch your back for you. Thanks people.
What is Minnie without Mickey,
What's Tigger without Pooh,
What's Patrick without Spongebob,
What's me without you people?
Thursday, January 25, 2007 19:15
1. Honestly, what color and brand is
your wallet?
Metallic PINK, oZoZo
2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
I don't understand photosynthesis.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right
now?
Blogging lor.
4. Honestly, do you think you are
attractive?
Honestly, how do u expect me to answer har?
5. Honestly, have you done something
bad today? What?
Yes. I bitched about the yong tao foo auntie (again).
6. Honestly, do you watch disney
channel?
Yes. Mickey Mouse is cute .
7. Honestly, are you jealous of someone
right now?
No. You see, I'm reasonable.
8. Honestly, what makes you happy
most of the time?
Talking -.-
9. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
No lar!
10. Honestly, do you call your bf/gf
everyday?
No. But I see my laogong everyday! Izn't that enough?
11. Honestly, have you had an eating
disorder?
If you mean eating ALOT, then yeah.
12. Honestly, do you want to see
someone this very minute?
Of course I've always hoped to see him again.
13. Honestly, do you have a deep dark
secret??
Yes. There's always a secret in every girl:)
14. Honestly, do you have a friend you
don't actually like?
FRIEND? Then no!
15. Honestly, are you loyal?
I AM VERY LOYAL. to myself.
16. Honestly, are you confused with
your feelings?
Not now.
17. Honestly, who would you wanna be
with right now?
My bolster. I'm yawning.
18. Honestly, do you like someone?
I like MOUSE.
19. Honestly, does anyone like you?
Why not you answer for me? I wouldn't know!
20. Honestly, are u an easy going
person?
I suppose so:)
Wednesday, January 24, 2007 23:20
My life of late has been rather pre-scheduled. Everyday is a repetition of a series of events religiously executed. I wake up at six every morning, brush my teeth, put on my contacts, rush down for breakfast(even breakfast is the same – char siew pao), go to school until dismissal time, dinner, bathe, reading room and finally switch on my laptop before ending my day all wrapped up in my checkered blanket in a particular pose.
Basically that’s my pre-determined everyday routine. This routine only holds true for Monday to Thursday, which is synonymous to saying four out of seven days of my week are catered for me to catch up on my work. Come to think of it, if I continue my every-week-life like this, no doubt I’ll definitely be able to complete my tutorials, and on top of that, study for upcoming tests!
Things always look good on paper. In reality, a different story is told.
Let’s see how long I can maintain this reading-room-routine I’m having now.
Come on, people, don’t show your skeptical faces yet. Have SOME faith in me please.
***
Ever wondered how fortunate we are? We are never tired of complaining every now and then whenever the situation doesn’t fit into our expectations. We complain of too little time, too little money, too much homework, too many balls to juggle at the same time. But have we, just for a moment, realized that with a little of something and so much of others that we have now, we are actually so much more fortunate than some people amongst us?
If I have to learn something everyday, I’d say I learnt to treasure what I currently have and be contented with them. I, although far from home, still have a place called ‘home’ – a shelter, a refuge, a sanctuary. There are people called ‘family members’ residing there, ever ready to grab me whenever I fall. And with their existence, I’ll be assured that even if I fall, there will always be enough strength to support me, prevent me from hitting the ground hard and flat. It is precisely this assurance of never-ending support that we live our lives like how we live right now – taking existing blessings for granted, ever seeking a better future but always ignoring a good present.
Have you ever thought that one day, that strong arm called ‘family’ may not be strong enough to hold you because it is already crippled with problems and worries?
You’ll fall, if you take the wrong step, and drag the arm down together with you. Eventually hitting the ground, hard and flat.
There are people out there who aren’t as fortunate as we are. These are the people who have to be cautious at every step they take. They have to pull themselves up even if they fall, for they know very well that they can’t increase the burden their family members are already shouldering. These people have seen the various realities of life, have walked though and out of them, and grew stronger with every step they made. They have the resilience, courage and strength to walk through trying times. Eventually they are reborn into somebody independent and able to handle their problems individually.
Deep down inside, I look up to them, and salute them for their courage. I felt spiritually minute standing beside these figures. And one of them happens to be my friend.
Therefore my friend, you’ve walked through trying times all these while. The resilience in you will help you through future obstacles, no doubt. But all I want you to know, is that every step you take as you advance into the future, I’ll always be walking at the same pace, not in front nor behind, but right beside you, to instantly grab you back should you trip over anything that stands in your path.
The same goes to all my friends and buddies out there. We’ll pull through together!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007 21:11
Sometimes I just can't understand human beings in general. Their nature. We are of one species, yet just how diverse our personalities are.
I shall reserve any further comments to me, myself and I.
"If you don't see the stars twinkle at night,
it doesn't mean that they are not there
one day the clouds will part
and you'll see them shine again."
It's amazing how unattractive someone could be in the past one year, and suddenly, as if taken some polyjuice potion, becomes so eye-catching this year!
-or perhaps last year was just too pathetic?
Interesting stuff that happened today:
1. I actually talked back at the rude auntie in the yong tao foo stall. She was having this serious attitude problem when she was serving us. So when she said "Say louder, don't mumble" (in chinese la of course) I snapped back at her almost instantly "You don't wana do business already isit?" in Chinese also. Somehow I felt accomplished after saying that. Well luckily she didn't put poison in my bowl of food, but added mee hoon which I hate so much. Surprisingly (or maybe not so surprising to some of you) I finished everything - meehoon and my yong tao foos.
2. ShiHui thought I had an appetite of a dinasaur. There were plates left by previous patrons which were not cleared by the aunties, and they were placed on the table, in front of me. ShiHui thought I actually ate all of them before I ate my yong tao foo. Best part of the story? I actually made her believe that I DID. And she really believed!
Miss Stupidity + appetite of a dinasaur = FAT-ter around the butt and waist.
SADDENING LA!!!
Monday, January 22, 2007 19:48
I finally got the photos for INSPIRE'06! Special thanks to Jek, our cameraman. I know taitai will wince at the word 'cameraman' but haha, it's the only word that is cute to pronounce!
Which brings my attention to our tendency to give others nicknames, so that we won't be calling their names every single time we mention about them. Think of it again, it boils down to us being chatty and talkative and talk about virtually anything under the sun. That's why we sometimes need 'cover'.
Some nicknames around me:
1. Mickey Mouse XD which stands for quenseng.
2. BBC who is our dear gp rep.
3. Xiao Zhu our Karen.
4. Taitai whom you all know.
5. Turkey Bacon Ham (you all should know. Don't think I should mention the name here even)
6. Cheeky the Rachel.
7. Mary Cheng, who is not with her lamb.
8. Not forgetting, Piao Piao our Guan Yin aka WeiFen!!! Name courtesy of our friendly neighbourhood tutor Mr Hsu.
Saturday, January 20, 2007 22:02
The night is so clear and light. Just like my heart. It is light as a feather, flying to where the night breeze brings me. What is sad will be the gravitational pull, which chains my heart down to where it is now.
You know how it feels when you finally get the well-deserved break you've worked so hard for? It felt as if you've shrugged yourself off all burdens and pain, and all the time in the whole wide world actually is at your disposal.
Usually you'll fret when you hear your clock go 'tick! tick! tick!' because you've got mountains of work to complete. But now even if I stare at my clock, I am only amazed by man's intelligence to devise something the whole world is living in pace with.
A recount on what happened these two days.
We had two tests, namely the notorious chem and demanding econs. Ok no link. Liberty once we cleared the econs test since it's the last lesson for us. Sorry Suzzy. Celebrated Lele's belated bday in pastamania TM. That confirmed the fact that pastas make me go hungrier with every additional bite! Yummy! Then I stoned around TM with the girls, before going to parkway to meet my roomie who was so eager to buy her mp3.
And this morning I was woken up by some stupid CNY songs! The office actually broadcasted it over the PA system at ten plus this morning. I totally jumped up at the chings and changs of the songs. There wasn't any place in this hostel which is free from such terrible noise pollution.
But it didn't affect my mood today! Went to check out the flea market behind cine with laogong, which turned out to be a futile trip because we went in the wrong Saturday! To make up for the mild disappointment we shopped around cine, before going to heeren. Then to our ultimate dismay, it poured! Big cats and big dogs! Laogong's umbrella could only shield our heads from the big droplets of water, but all the other body parts were WET. The moment we stepped into taka, it was COLD. Freezingly cold. Freakingly freezing cold. Alright you should get the idea now.
I will remember how the ice cream fell out of the cone, and laogong's stunned face:)
My day didn't end just like that! When we came back to hostel to catch dinner, the fire alarm went off. And it wasn't a false alarm. What's worse? They told me that 6th floor female block was in fire! What the hell! But eventually it turned out to not be a real fire. Sigh of relief.
So my day ended with bridge with pear and some of the juniors. Real good time. Good laughs too. And for the first time, I actually witnessed a HUMAN finish chewing a BONE. Human or dog huh?
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 17:13
It was something I overheard today that I came to realize just how many different types of people I'm living with. I mean, some totally look like replicas from those characters you see on tv dramas. Many of them with certain personalities or characters which you just can't imagine they exist in reality. To me, most were just make-up characters of dramas with a-little-over-exaggerated personalitie to add spice to the story being broadcasted. You just can't imagine such a person can actually exist.
When they say tv dramas depict real life stories, I begin to believe after I witness a few examples of make-up-characters-coming-to-life around me.
For those who don't catch any balls now, treat this as just a random piece of post.
For those who get the faintest hint as to who I'm talking about, sshhh and keep reading if you want.
I never know some people are actually LIKE THAT. I simply can't imagine. Or rather, since young I've been taught certain values that were so important that I still hold them dearly now. It's very, I would say, astonishing to overhear what I overheard today. I shall not disclose the content, but I have to admit I let out gasp when I heard it.
Humans are complicated, aren't they? And no two humans are equal, for their characters, however similar, will still show SOME difference.
That's all for today's random post.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 12:03
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
He said
"Will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go. Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
When you're gone we want you all to know We'll Carry on,
We'll Carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
Carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I cant contain it
The anthem wont explain it.
And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all
So paint it black and take it back
Lets shout it loud and clear
Do you fight it to the end
We hear the call to
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
To carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on
And on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause
I could not care at all Do or die
You'll never make me
Cause the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
Want it all,
I'm gonna play this part
Wont explain or say i'm sorry
I'm not ashamed,
I'm gonna show my scar
You're the chair, for all the broken Listen here, because it's only..
I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
Just a man,
I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care
Carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry
We'll carry on
-My Chemical Romance, Welcome to the Black Parade
Isn't this inspiring?
11:41
"Nothing in this world will stop us tonight
I can do what she can so much better"
-Paris Hilton, Nothing In This World
Typical tendency for comparison deep down inside. Perhaps not til the stage of jealousy, for jealousy is when someone feel emotional imbalance for others own or did something that someone doesn't. I realize the tendency for comparisons lie deep within our hearts, and are oftenly expressed without us even realizing it.
Perhaps I shall be more emotionally-concious next time. So as to not hurt others as well as myself.
It's raining again. Those droplets of water that rinse the earth off dirt.
Rinse me off my sins, would you?
I'm sorry for all the hurt I've caused.
Saturday, January 13, 2007 12:18
I came across this thingy in friendster, and out of supreme boredom i decided to put it here:)
30 little secrets about me:
1.What does your Friendster name mean?
If you don't know, you should be called Mr/Miss Stupidity tooXD
2.Where was your default pic taken?
Ed's house! During his sis's wedding party (altho I still wonder why we were invited since we weren't his sis's close friends)But parties are what I like and yearn for:)
3.When was the first time you had a crush?
It was LOONGGGG LOONGGG time ago.
4.What is your current relationship status?
It's just like the vacant, energy-accessible 3d orbital! If you study Chem in JC you'll know what I mean :P
5.Honestly, does you crush like you?
Honestly, I don't know. But I don't think so.
6.What is your current mood?
Supreme boredom.
7.What do you love most?
MOUSE! And the feeling of being acknowledged for my presence.
8.What makes you happy?
Almost everything. As long as I don't have mood swings:X
9.Are you musically inclined?
YA DUH!
10.If you can go back in time and change something, what would it be?
Everything I did which hurt others in the end.
11.If you MUST be an animal for ONE day what would you be?
A mouse heee.
12.Ever had a near death experience?
Leg cramps in the middle of a deep pool?
13.Something you do alot?
I believe you can answer for me. STONING.
14.What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head now?
Welcome to the Black Parade.
15.Who did you copy and paste this from?
JIAYI
16.Name someone with the same birthday as you.
I can only think of Vanessa:X
18.Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
If I did, my audience will be deaf.
20.What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their smiles.
21.What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Frappucino?
23.Ever had a drunken night?
I havent got drunk before.
25.Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Totally Spies!
26.Do you have braces?
No but I DID have.
28.Name something funny that happened to you.
HAHAHA and I forget about them already.
29.Do you speak any other language?
Chinese, Cantonese, English, Malay and sleep-talking.
30.What's your favourite smell?
My bolster smell.
Friday, January 12, 2007 20:35
Rainy days please go away
For you've been here for too many days.
If continuous rain has implications behind, what will they be?
The sky has been grey these days. So was my mood. Gloomy weather coupled with hypnotizing rain tend to push my spirit downhill, up to a point where any reaction to external stimulus becomes tiring. If you find me stoning at any point in time these few days, do not be alarmed. If you find me not responding to you in the next few days and behave like a retard, blame it on the weather.
Let's talk about relationships today. Relationships as in BGR. It's happening to many friends around me now. I think the moment when two people fall for each other is miraculous. There are so many people around, and the chances of us meeting each other out of so many people are very slim. Then on top of that to start a relationship with this one person out of so many people is just like a miracle happening. Of course, starting a relationship is one matter, but keeping it steady is another. Effort has to be put in by both parties to enjoy the fruit of love. Hmm.. and I'm glad I'm actually part of everything that's going on with Taitai and Mr Cameraman.
Anyway I don't like the rain when it gets into my shoes -.- It makes my feet feel wet and totally GROSS! Socks retain water you know, and for the rest of my time out of hostel i felt as if I was soaking my feet in muddy water. And continuous rain means I have to bring umbrella EVERY DAY. So huge for my small bag.
Therefore, I need a new bag :D
Another reason why I should go out tomorrow. Perhaps bugis?
Everything went on fine during the scholars' induction today. Not much to induce anyway. All were bags of calcium blocks and carbon compounds:)
Then it hit me again.
Out of a sudden, I sank back to the unglam state of STONING. It's like suddenly all the colours I saw around me faded to greyscale in a flick. Whoa just like what those wizards and witches can do in Hogwarts during their magic lessons.
And there goes my day, with greyscale vision. Of course not literally, if not I'd be
COLOUR BLIND.
Thursday, January 11, 2007 19:33
Perhaps words are not all that poisonous.
When they are spoken out of sincerity, just a simple 'are you ok?' is sufficient to pull a drowning mind back to the shore.
I'm extremely weird today. Perhaps under the influence of sore throat and voice lost which I reluctantly succumb to. We are talking about a girl whose biggest hobby is TALKING. Losing her voice is almost synonymous to a tracker being paralyzed. Alright this may sound a little too exaggerated as I can still convey my thoughts and emo if I need to.
But imagine you are fond of running on the track (which I don't think anyone who currently reads this is :P) and suddenly your legs are paralyzed. How would you feel? That your day totally sucks right? Then you're tempted to set foot on the track everytime you see the track, but a horrible voice at the back of you mind kept reminding you of your little misfortune. Well in my case, it gets tiring to open my mouth to let the throat vibration be heard. So what's next? You don't even have the mood to look at the track, for it keeps reminding you of ur legs. Which is exactly what happened to me.
Can you believe it? I don't have the mood to get into any conversation, because every single time I speak, my words go unheard and my throat screams of pain. So the result is that Miss Stupidity has no urge to speak anymore.
To some people, the world gets quieter.
To many, perhaps world peace. Hahahax.
So I eventually evolved into a stoner. Surprisingly I could not bring myself to slumberland this afternoon, not even in the rainy weather. The abnormal me decided not to idle my time away and so I brought my Organic Chem to the study room. The alertness of the mind kept me awake, but loss of voice made me retarded. I stoned in the air con room for god knows how long, and surprisingly under such condusive environment, I still had not the urge to see Uncle Zhou who's so busy in Dreamland.
If you don't understand what I mean in the above paragraph, don't ask. It's words of partial insanity.
I coughed like an asthma victim on bus just now. There's something in the throat that started all that. No matter how hard I forced the itch just wouldn't go away. Now I know how long the journey from school to hostel can get if you are having asthma attack on the bus. I hope I didn't scare the passengers. I must have given them the impression I had SARS or Bird Flu with my sexy voice.
Correction, it's husky voice. It's voice barely able to escape from the throat. It's 8 something now and that means I've been stoning about one hour. So much for not idling my time away.
Scholars induction is tomorrow. If I don't get my voice back, all I can do tomorrow is to smile meekly at all of them. And STONE.
Walao I've spent a whole post talking about my sore throat and no voice. I just don't want to end this post for when I do, I'll start to stone AGAIN.
***
Random things today:
I have a purple umbrella now.
My wallet is getting dirty.
My phone hasn't vibrated for half an hour.
I'm wearing VJ PE tee.
I'm looking forward to CNY.
I want a slave who works his ass out for me.
I want to STONE.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 23:07
It’s finally over, the whole hoo-ha. I was bugged by the very same question on whether we can remain in our room for the rest of the year. Guess what? Our so called friendly-amiable-ever-smiling teacher mentor aka MADAM JIANG HUI paid us a surprise visit last night. The funny thing is, she accused me (yes I use ‘accused’) of not studying just because I watched Singapore Idol, and now that I finally AM studying, she came to bombard us with bad news.
What a big thank you Madam Jiang Hui, for ruining my study mood and made the rest of my night unproductive.
We were told to move to another room in the space of four days. Four days! Without the luxury of time, I am expected to pack everything that’s in my possession and place them outside my room, let them inspect the room, approve of its condition, before releasing the new room key so that I can move my stuff to the new room. Note: we have to place ALL our stuffs outside our room. What does that call for? Complaints from neighbours for blocking up the entire corridor!
My goodness have she no brains at all?! For one, how are we supposed to find the TIME to pack ALL the things? And two, why don’t we just stay back in our rooms, and save the hassle for both parties?
Dumb blonde? Dumber jiang hui I would say. What a ‘purr-fect’ reason to ask us to move. ‘For a better management’, she says. So that she doesn’t need to cover so great a distance when she needs to pass a message to us. Excuse me, can you find a better excuse? Since when you come to us to pass us a message? You have always used the so-inefficient relay system, that messages were either lost halfway before reaching our doorsteps, or reached last minute and caused all the delays. And not to mention everytime you stepped into our room you either bring bad news or blow up the volcano in me.
Last night was turbulent enough. But at least, rainbow is always the pleasant surprise after a storm. We just got news that we are put under the custody of Jiang Ling, who is staying on our level as well. This implies that WE DON’T NEED TO MOVE!!!!
This incident has shown me the true colours of some people. Some behind those smiling masks are ugly faces you won’t expect to see. It’s up to your discretion to distinguish between what’s real and what’s fake.
Sunday, January 07, 2007 10:43
I'm here because I'm slacking. I couldn't even conjure a word for my AQ, after being in the study room for... I lost count of the time.
You are here because you are slacking too :)
Slackers!
Start of a new school term cannot be more boring than this. It used to be still honeymoon in the past. But now, look at us. The teachers have already labelled us as 'J2s' and hence the obligation to not play and to devote ourselves to our notes. Every teacher thinks that his/her subject is of highest priority and expect us to do the best in it.
How great, to learn that there are already two tests waiting for us in week 3. Who knows if other subject tutors decide to have 'waking up bells' too?
Saturday, January 06, 2007 20:44
You know how it feels like when you are trapped in between two opposing sides, and there's no way you can side either one without being stared with apprehension from the other or feel bad because you are close to both parties?
It just makes me wonder why people can't learn from each other. Why do rivals exist in the first place. And also who in the world discovered the word 'rival'. Perhaps if this world is a more innocent place, where people live in harmony without 'reading between the lines', there's not even a need to invent weapons in the first place.
But as 'greed' and 'jealousy' sink in, homo sapiens start to perceive things differently. They see more harm, perhaps more than there should be in some cases. They think that certain things their fellow species brothers or sisters do are actually sending provoking messages - messages which mean to harm. And what's next? They get agitated, and start imagining things. I prefer the word 'imagining', for in some cases, those perceived provokations (I'm not sure if this word exist :P) are merely creations of the troubled minds!
Come on. Is it that difficult to let bygones be bygones, and not to take into account every little 'harm' from others? Despite the existing level of education which brings us higher on the academic ladder, we are still among petty people, who cares about nothing but little things they think others do on them. Oh please. Such 'imaginary thoughts' exist in so many people that they actually form communities of people who think like them. Note it's 'communities', because there are different groups of people who enemize different groups of people. Then what's worse? These 'beliefs' are passed down from generation to generation, basically to those people who newly join such 'communities'. What's next? A common rival(s) among people from the same community.
People, relax. Must you see harm in everything your supposedly-rivals do? Maybe they do not mean anything at all! Perhaps it's just your vivid imagination running wild and took over you momentarily. Is it that difficult to make better analysis before making judgements and conclusions?
And even if they really do mean harm, is it that impossible to just dismiss and forget, as long as it doesn't inflict physical harm? Anyway, it's our EQ I'm talking about.
11:09
I'm finally back from the Maybank. Our allowance is in already! Yay! Bye-bye being poor! But then I don't think I'll let the shopaholic in me resurface again for this year. Be sceptical for all you want heh, wait til I prove to you all.
It has never dawned on me how important any year in my life was, not until this year. After smart analysis by my not-dumb-at-all roomate, both of us realized that this year could jolly well determine our entire life - the life that follows after we graduate. I should say this is the perfect reason why I'm making the shopaholic me dormant (I refuse to use 'shopping ban', just in case, you know, I can't resist 'some' temptation).
And a look at my account book freaked me out a little. I did not update my passbook the whole of last year, so there weren't details of transactions I made. There were just consolidated amounts. And they come in, not hundreds, but thousands. What's worse? I spent more than I got! Therefore starting from this year, I shall watch my expenses.
Sometimes I come to think whether not appealing for H3 is a wise choice for me. I know, last year I was still going on about whether I could secure my scholarship. In the end I was quite satisfied with my results, just that sometimes I wonder, is that so difficult to score an A in JC? I didn't have an A at all! They said if I did apply for H3, there's high probability I may get it. Which now I find quite true. So why did I not try last year?
It was because of what my tutor said. I shall not disclose her identity. I went to her and asked her for recommendation. But all she said was discouraging. Hey, my performance isn't that bad, is it? At least I got a B in the subject I wanted H3 for. But in the end, I was so wet from the wet blanket she threw at me, so I forgo the chance.
So you see, words are poison!
Well since it's too late to talk about H3, I shall not regret my choice.
Work hard everybody!
Thursday, January 04, 2007 19:03
Hello. I'm enduring great pain in the legs now, a result of mass dance in the hall.
Today's topic is about waiting. I'm sure all of you out there know what it is like waiting for others. Many a times when we go for gathering, outing and so on, many of us don't care about the stipulated time. When we were younger maybe some of us were always punctual, but others were not. So we ended up waiting by a pillar past the stipulated time, and after repeated fate as 'the one waiting', we decided to not make ourselves look like such morons anymore. We've experience the dreadfulness for being always the waiting party, so since then we have this mentality that it's better to be the one late, than to be the one standing against some pillar looking moronic.
Being late is such a bad habit. I've had a dose of meaningless wait today.
We, as station masters, set off from school to Pasir Ris to set up everything for Amazing Race. The freshmen were supposed to set off from school at 815, which means we initially had to wait for 45 minutes only. But the kind-of-expected happened. Not even a shadow showed up when the time was half past nine. Then I received a message from our HOD that the freshmen were released 45minutes later than expected time. Great, wasn't it?
So Aulia and I were like a pair of aimless retards sitting on the bench at Pasir Ris Interchange. So many people walked past us, some even with curious eyes. No doubt, they must be wondering what those three (DiHui came)retards were doing with two pieces of table cloths and a piece of bashaar on the floor.
The wait was painstakingly long, and we were so overjoyed when we finally sighted the first group running towards us. I thought our mundane/dry/boring/stupid/idiotic wait was over, because other groups would be coming one after another. But hell no! We had to wait yet another slightly more and an hour for the next group to come.
Walaaaaaaooooo!
I won't want to be station master for such kind of things anymore. For once in my life, I'd rather choose the stuffy LT over this kind of thing. Even if the LT is stuffy, there's always something for me to do, not like this where all I could do was to play with my handphone and talk and repeat the process for countless of times.
And after one whole lethargic morning and early afternoon, my eyes became so droopy. Not even the mass dance could perk me up. I was excited during the earlier portion of the mass dance, but quick as it could the feeling of extreme fatigue took over my body. And of course, my brain.
How am I going to fulfil my new year resolution which is to finish all my work on time, which in immediate term, is to clear all my holiday homework, including the horriendous summary and AQs?
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 15:37
Happy Third Day, aka official school day 2007. It's time we go back to where we are supposed to be before the pampering holidays began. This also means returning to old habits and repeat the routine all over again. New Year? I doubt it.
Perhaps it's New Year for those who experience environmental changes. I don't mean the climate. For those who moved in this new year, it's definitely New Year for them. They start afresh together with the passing year.
But for people like us who have to repeat their routine all over again, but US especially who have to put in extra effort, New Year isn't that new after all.
It's O1 again. This very same day in 2006 was my New Year in VJ. I was a freshie then, waking up in the morning full with anxiety, looking forward to what my dream school can bring me. Of course count the morning breakfast in VH out. It's so far the most disgusting thing I've ever eaten. Together with me were my peers, some who have even become close buddies of mine. We were all looking forward to our new start - a new beginning of yet another stage of our lives, which none of us shall forget.
It feels so fresh to see new freshmen in the school. (Duh?!) No, I mean the look on their faces, those only we, as J2s, know so well. It's the face full of expectations, and yet not having too high a hope, for they truly know nothing about the school. Some even wander about in blurness, totally unsure of which part of the school they are heading (sounds familiar?). Others made new friends straight away, and chatting. Mass dance should be the highlights, and are seen as a breakaway from those you-can-expect games.
After all that, you'll find yourself another identity - a unique identity instilled during the orientation. The spirit, the character, the attitude. Once you have that identity in you, you are proud of it.
This morning we left the hostel at 0640, in view of walking to the HDB bus stop, which the kiasu us think will be empty. To our horror/dismay/surprise we realized that the whole bunch of new scholars were behind us when we were just out of hostel. I didn't know why we suddenly got so excited that since then, the four of us - yongyi, pear, jillian and miss stupidity, amused ourselves with lamesness. Things like ways to become a mean senior, how to bully the juniors etc. Not forgetting the occasional outbursts of uncontrollable laughters. Totally bongkus. This mania continued til assembly.
J2s had special lecture timetables while the freshies had their orientation. Well, to accommodate all J2s there's inevitably loonggggg and freeeeequent breaks in between lectures. Basically i came to school today for Chem (quite useful, unfortunately easy) and GP (a total waste of my time). Oh yes, also the loonggg and never ending break-time talks as well as giggling fits.
And now, I have to resort to stoning in the library while waiting for the 1730 briefing in LT3. The library! Such a familiar place for people who STUDY - yes, I did study last year. And I'm here again... *roll eyes* New Year? My foot.
Despite how 'un-new' this new year is, it's still another year.
So happy school reopen for those who are still studying, and happy working for those who are, of course, working.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 10:03
Before marriage. .
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there..
Before marriage. .
U DIE,i'll die with u .
After marriage.
"U die, up to u. "
Before marriage. .
U go anywhere. . I follow u.
After marriage. . .
U go anywhere. . up to u.
soo long married. . .
U go anywhere better get lost!!
Before wedding
u are my heart, u are my love"
After wedding
"u get on my nerves. "
Before wedding
"u are sweet and kind just like
Cinderella"
After wedding
"u are worse than godzila"
Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue. Like
it or
not, I'm
stuck with u
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue.U get on
my head, I
will sue u
Before wedding
Every dating he brings u to Shangri-La
After wedding
U want to go, he says u 'wait-la'
Before wedding
She looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or
biawak.....
Monday, January 01, 2007 23:36
There and back again.
I've just found a liking for travelling on the same bus with big families. The family members care for each other throughout the entire journey, and that makes the whole journey much more bearable than usual. They have each other in their minds, that forms an invisible net which connects every one in the family. And because of this, I somehow felt that I was part of the 'net' as well. Compare this to when everybody was travelling solo, they only care about themselves. There is no more inter-twining of thoughts, no more concern for other people on the bus. Then the whole bus becomes quiet and cold. Sometimes I even shivered due to the 'lack of warmth' during the journey.
There and back again. I'm suffering from insomnia, because I miss my bed back home.
And not to mention slacking the whole day.
