“You don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
You feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
WelCoMe tO mY life!”
-‘welcome to my life’ Simple Plan
What is over is really over. So let me feed you with the outcome:
Chem 59
Bio 59
Maths 56
Econs 51
GP 48
As shown from the above data, one can easily conclude that Miss Stupidity did not perform well for her promos. I must say, I was shocked when I saw my marks at first. I could not believe my eyes that I actually got a C for maths and chem. Of course that was because I did not, in the first place, expected anything more than an E. Still, I got to try my best to clear my scholarship renewal, which means an average of C’s.
Humans are hard to please, don’t you think? For bio, chem and maths I was so happy that I passed. But then, I realized I wasn’t looking for a mere pass. I was looking for all C’s. And when I managed to hit all C’s, I start to wonder why I’m only getting C’s and nothing above it. 人心不足蛇吞象 I guess this is the best description.
When many of the people around me are getting grades which, under superficial comparison, are a few bands above mine, I start to question my true ability. Is that my true ability? That’s hyper discouraging out of a sudden. Why are there people getting A for maths and I’m down here rejoicing at my C? A is still a long way from C, so what am I to celebrate? Why am I celebrating in the first place?
Not to mention, econs saw a dip. This is a real disappointment. Or am I merely having to high a hope?
Looking at the girl in my mirror, I find her pathetic.
She engages in superficiality and materialism, but has a shallow mind.
She carries a mask wherever she goes, for she is afraid to let her true emotions surface.
Cowardice in action.
Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me?
