Call me a full-time pig or whatever name appropriate. I sleep more than I eat.
I came back from school at four something and went straight to bed. My beloved. I did not set alarm as I didnt wanna eat hostel dinner. So by the moment I woke up, it was all dark. Instincts told me that it was next morning, and I almost wanted to fall back to sleep, as a means to wait for my alarm.
But I did NOT set alarm at all. And i jumped off bed almost instantly. Morning? Did that mean I slept through the entire night without my dinner and everything? Oh NO. So i looked at Xiruo's bed. Empty. Oh no, does that mean she woke up to brush teeth already? The mere thought of sleeping through the entire night alarmed me. I jumped off my bed and ran outside. It was dark as well, which somehow confirmed my inference that i slept all night. Still unwilling to accept the fact, i went back into the room and checked my handphone.
19:20
A sigh of relief escaped from my lips. Cant tell you how relieved i was to see that i did not sleep through.
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Promos have become history. All the grades we get, regardless of moderations or not, are fixed. There's nothing much we can do at this stage, but to hear from moderations, and hopefully everything turns out as expected.
But hell! Bio moderation sucked for me. Generally they scaled down the mark to get A, which means more people having the chance to get an A. The same with E and S, so that the percentage passes will be higher. Higher indeed, as compared to JCT. This time it is 80 over percent, while JCT was only 60 over. Congrats to those who benefitted. But i'm not one of them.
One more mark, and i'll move one band higher, from a C to a B. 59, a C at raw score, and i had been optimistic that it will migrate to a B. But no. The stark reality tells me that it is still a C. One careless mistake in the paper, and there goes my B.
The same thing goes to my chem. 59 as well, but chem is slightly more optimistic than bio. At least a 59 may get me a B. I hate 59. I shall promise myself to never get this kind of one-more-careless-blows-it-all kind of mark anymore. It is weird to underperform in the classroom, where i could do the exact same question now. If my state of mind then was the same as my state of mind now, i'm sure i will not get a 59.
Having said that, i'll stand by my friends who need support. I have hit what i need, but they need more than me. For those who got S and U, be rest assured that i'll be around when you need me. We will appeal together, and stay together as a class, taking 4 H2 as our subject combi, and mugg hard for next year.
We will do it. We will make it real.
