i promised myself i would blog this down. if given my temper i still say i have never felt provoked to a large extent, well, this one did.
i was watching singapore idol on channel 5, in the lounge, enjoying the night breeze that crept in through the windows. my only entertainment this hostel ever provided me. and itz my first tv show in the week. maybe more than that, or so i felt. and me being such a person with situation awareness, i brought my prokaryotic notes down with me.
i did read the notes when it comes to commercials. not like i never study and keep indulging myself in entertainment and waste time away. then this old woman just came up from behind, and told me i could not watch tv at that time! what the fish?!(taken from ks) i was like huh? and gave her the blank face.
come on, i know itz war time now. but u cant be mugging 24/7 right? ok i know of SOME who do but those are the ultra super hyper kiasus who cares nothing better than to be better than the rest, so that they will be psychologically normal. you know who im talking abt. anyway that old fox of a woman was using her ever-so-polished sacarsm to hint to me that im such a bad naughty cheeky little girl who couldnt care less abt maintaining her scholarship.
"we expect jc boarders to make full use of the spare time, like now, to engage in studies-related activities. and not for self pleasure like watching tv."
that was what she said when i said im a jc boarder(but obviously she knows coz she's my teacher mentor!) hey woman, have you no common sense at all? just because you never see me studying(in your definition), and so happens everytime you run into me you'd find me doing sth studies-unrelated-activities, doesnt mean i NEVER study. tell me, who never studies now? use your common sense can? you old hag!
even more ridiculous was when she asked me whether i go to the study room. of course i ans "no". that somehow confirmed her hypothesis that im such an attitude problematic girl. and her sacarsm came back almost instantly. could not bear her lectures anymore, for any time from then my insides would explode and she'll kena all the lava, i cut her words bluntly with "i fancy the reading room more". full stop. she paused, blinked, and parted her lips again. this time bringing out the fact that my darling roomate goes to the study room everyday. im not an idiot, i knew what she was driving at. i admit i never study as much as she does, and for this i admire her perserverance, but i dont need to always pegg my study time to others right? im not such person who engage in kiasu-ism, a practise which now, near promos period, has plagued the scholar population in particular. many will beg to differ i know, but if you know me enough, you'll know who im talking abt again. and too bad, i just had enough vaccine to get myself immune to such plague.
what is her freaking problem huh? is her definition of study staying in study rooms day and night? just because you dont see me in study rooms doesnt mean i dont study. just because you see me going out every weekend doesnt mean im out to waste money and time. i could be doing a whole world of important stuffs for all you know. and please, i dont show up in the study room, simply because i feel suffocated there. yess, im suffocated by the aura of determination to win over others and spreading kiasu-ism. i need a bigger space, with more fresh air and less of such pollutants. if i offended you, your business man. because if you feel offended, you are one of 'them'.
old woman, do not classify people according to their jct performance. it is en extremely superficial act. just shows that you have no brains.
but come to think of it, quite true for you la. no complaints.
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today's progress is quite slow. barely finished prokaryotes. info processing unit has auto shut down itself. it happened since the morning. alright, time to get some sleep.
