oh man. what got into me today?
well yeah i called. but for no reason.
huh perhaps i was just too bored.
perhaps... perhaps
perhaps i should just flick my hair, look in front, and say "WOW there are so many cute ones out there. why waste time on someone unworthy? i should just move on and let someone more competent catch up."
how CONFIDENT. and confidence is something terribly lacking in me now. i wonder how, i wonder why.
maybe itz cowardice. itz cowardice that pulls me back. despite the strong urge to move on, it just pulls me back. alright admit it ivy. u just never try. u let cowardice take over you. you never fight for yourself.
am i that loser?