i relived my days in vj today. ecp felt so familiar.
and yet i must say,
IM NOT THE GIRL I WAS. anymore.
things change. people change. i change. u change.
so when he told me he's going back onli the day before he went back, i started thinking, was i that not worthy of u informing me much earlier than that?
but NOW i wont be harping on that question just to find out that i mind his actions. wad im thinking now is that he must have moved on, just like me, and leading a good, if not better life.
people have to move on regardless of what kind of memories the present gives. they have to step into the future. so what if the present is so pleasant and u feel like in a dream, for only dreams can provide u with such happiness? u still walk on, for time waits for no man. oh, that includes woman too(if u realize what i mean). if bad things befall, worry not. good stuffs await u somewhere in front of u, so all u've got to do is to step out, and continue walking, and you'll reach them. soon enough. this is adapted from cheechin's luck circulation theory, which i think is a really good way to console oneself.
or just merely bluffing?
i saw isaac on9 this morning. how much we've grown! we were joking abt girls and he asked "why dont u ask me to get u instead of your friends?" that totally threw me off guard. but i onli replied "im just not good at selling myself. im better in selling others."
that qn sounded really familiar. 3 years ago he asked the same qn and i denied him of the chance. i wonder what would have happened if he got his chances. maybe it would just end up the same. i gave it to somebody, and we still ended up that way. i wont say we screwed it up tho. at least i WAS happy :)
so i guess this is a very mutual thing. it happens at the right moment, right place, right person. u cant ignore and u cant forget.
this post is SO nonsense. so INTRON. yeah itz a piece of intron. i wish therez the enzymes(hell i forgot their names) to cut out those introns and piece the exons together so that i'll be more useful.
