twice easter celebration i've participated in two days. both speak of jesus rising from His grave.
somehow i prefer small churches to big ones.
i went to city harvest ytday. and amazing grace presbyterian church today to witness oddball's confirmation. in the house of God u really feel the power of faith, something i need for the time being to pull through.
that's why i went to temple aft lunch at oddball's church. i like going to the temple. esp when i go there alone. time suddenly stops there. all u hear is incessant chanting of prayers and the chimes at regular intervals. though some may find them bothering, i found unspeakable peace in mind when i immerse my thoughts in them.
this is when ur thoughts run free. this is when u do self reflection in the most effective way. this is also when u find answers to ur questions. something like what christians get during their services.
i begin to like these holy places. places where u feel closer to any God u worship.
when we feel helpless or hopeless or the world turn their backs on you, be rest assured that God will never do so if u believe in them. sometimes when we are tired coping taxing problems and u feel like all ur strength is drained away, it is this spiritual support that u need from ur religion. and with the spiritual support u see light again, and miraculously u are propelling forward, reaching for the sun.
i realize i've turned this post into a religion talk.
so i've found my answer. enough is enough. enough of acts of stupidity, thoughts of foolishness that had veiled my path! no more temptation, devilish distractions which veered me off my path to sunshine. it may feel heavenly at first, but a fallacy will continue to be one. it will never replace the truth. all these enjoyment is temporary, and over time the true ugly face will be reveiled. if u still havent gotten back to ur real path and directions by then, u'll find yourself in, according to the reverand, a path which leads to spiritual destruction.
i'm glad i've found my peace. i shall give in no more to distractions. i shall stay firm at my ground, the solid faith i'm holding on to right now. and never falter.
