now i'm back again. this place cannot display chinese.. but i dun wanna change blogskin coz i really like this one. it suits me the most.
secret wish... just the right word.
i have a wish. but i cant verbally tell anyone. human relation is too extensive and complicated. i dun want to go overboard, and in the end bring complete destruction to the bridge that was just formed between us.
i just came to realization, but then itz all too late. blame it on the posting and my stupidity.
it should be apparent to me. somehow now that therez no one else to tease me, i should be happy. but i feel sth lacking. something that had somehow been a daily routine after those days together.
certain things he did were quite suggestive, but yet it may not mean it at all. i pasted the card he and the rest did for me as a leaving gift on the wall, next to my bed. and i can always see the msgs written for me, and feel lighter, esp his. there are times when he called me bimbo, but i din mind. sometimes when i was alone in the night wif nothing but silence as my company, itz really heartwarming to see ur fone vibrate, and when u pick up, itz him calling. the sight of his fone number was like a charm that chases away all the boredom. though the conversations were quite crappy they were enjoyable.
somehow now in dunman when the night is cold and insects are humming, i take furtive glances at my fone, one side of me hoping to see it vibrate wif his number, but the other side of me asking me to forget it. truly enough, my fone din vibrate whatsoever up til today.
sighz.
until this realization fades away, i'll take furtive glances at my fone everynight. frankly speaking, i dont think my secret wish is gonna come true. coz if it were to, it would have come true ald.
