finally, i've at least found it. the feeling of satisfaction during exam. i always had this feel during major exams, though i didnt during prelims. perhaps itz a sign that i wont do as well as i expected, and true indeed for prelims. hmm, i hope this will help my maths this time. this is NOT funny if i cant get A for maths d. not funny at all. all i hope is that my brain wasnt oblivious of any careless mistakes, and paper two can compensate for the carelessness in paper one.
and so i hope.
the biggest hurdle is yet to come. but i know, itz gonna be swift and fast. passed even without me noticing it.
come to think of it, itz fast.
dont you think so? i do.
and itz still pretty amazing that we share common mitochondria. hmm, that at least, makes us common.
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i want to go back asap, but i dont want either. life is always contradictory, or at least MINE is. no idea why, but i always contradict myself. maybe because i think too much into it. or izit effect of SS that i have to present two sides of argument, and now wadever i do, i think in that way too.
and no matter how much you think you dislike something, it still does you good in the end. you learn something still. just like c lit for me (hoi all the c litters!!) i was told to look deeper into the meaning of the poems or any piece of literature. i hated that. i hated mugging for c lit test. that made me feel like a nerd. i dont like to be one, and i am not one.
one stereotypical idea among us is that when you see someone scoring better than you, you'll automatically assume that that person mugged very hard. itz true that you cant get good grades without studying, no one can in fact. and so please dont assume that i mug supercalifragerlisticespialidocious-ly hard in secret. i'm not such person. but dont keep repeating to me the fact that so and so do all sorts of things irrelevant to exams and did not study at all. please, i wont buy your story. you are just enforcing the fact that you are a creature of high level of intelligence. that's all.
anyway, i sidetracked. i was saying abt c lit. now i always read between the lines, i'm not so naive anymore. i tend to identify the purpose and the theme of anything, be it someone talking, drama series and even song lyrics at times. hmm, i think i m quite bo liao, as according to yao xinyi. maybe.
and the thot of xinyi reminded of chem in chinese. i miss the times when we had to remember the translations for scientific terms, historical terms and geog terms in preparation for uec. actually, uec was like after pmr, so no one actually bothered to study for it, for everyone expected some funny grades in the end, because we were not taught the syllabus at all! so we just somehow transferred the knowledge we acquired over the years if any, and translated it into chinese terms onto the test paper. i think i threw away that piece of paper containing all the terminology in chinese for all the elements, chemical reactions and naming of compounds. and for bio some stupid weird terms too. i regret not keeping it properly.
in short, i just like the world in chinese more. wang laoshi, if you see this, be happy as a chinese teacher.
dotz..
oh ya!! read in laoshi's blog.. that we'll get two more points for higher chinese!! cox the word 'xiao tiao' is from one of the cancelled chapters!! what a news to me! actually it doesnt do me any good, because i didnt even realize the word was cancelled, and treated it as the usual chinese paper that i always did back there. nobody study chinese for god's sake. but not for here. you are just pushed backwards if you dont study the pathetic eight books for 35 marks. itz stupid, as if you'll have greater command of the language if you eat all eight books. that's why i like the tests back there. anyway, i hope i wont be doing chinese anymore in jc.
