why am i here at this point of time? cox i want to shout. i cant shout in the room, for my room8s will be horrified; i cant shout outside, for i will be an officially-declared psycho in the boarding skul, which i dont want at all.
somehow mrs wong's words came true. i really wonder, why am i studying now? what am i studying for? oh please, dont ever tell me that's for my future. i've had enough of this kind of talk. my parents have been psychoing me into studying hard and getting as good grades as possible for every single test. i wont say it's a bad thing - at least i've been in the highest point before. but now, i'm sick of the books. and xtin's words are true too - if there is a reason for us being sick of studying now (i mean for scholars), it will be our prelims. quite true. scholars view prelims more importantly than 'o's, cox no one wish to be involved in JAE nxt march, as that will mean you will move to a lousier jc. please pardon me for my choice of adjective.
i know i'm in no position to criticize or comment on my friends' relationships, but you know, bitching has become my second nature so i have to do it. does it make sense? nvm, i shall find no more excuses for this behaviour.
getting attached in secondary skul is a very natural thing esp in mixed skul. but halo! can you like find a better partner? again, this is bitching. it contains slant and loaded language. read at your own risk.
she changed so much that i almost couldnt recognise her although she was talking to me. yeah, ppl tend to be more kai fang when they pak tor, this i can comprehend. but if getting attached to THAT guy makes you a more petty person, there is a problem. he is my friend too, but he will always stay as my fren, cox i simply just cant stand him bossing ard. he is too egoistic as a partner. and so you give me that offensive look just because i dont want to help him. who is he to tell me to do this and that in the first place? maybe both of you are my friends, and when friends are attached to each other, it's kind of hard for me to change my attitude slightly, cox i cant play and behave the way i used to be.
grr.. enough of bitching. i feel like a traitor now. sorry guys, you all can continue your relationships for all i care. anyway, what i say is never anything you will listen now.
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and yao, yeah i guess i'll miss that stupid talks when i really leave nanyang. perhaps, we can go to the same jc and then we can continue...
