ARGH!! i feel like shooting myself, or juz bang my head to the wall. bang and knock and bang and knock until my mind is clear. looks like i've gotta say a big goodbye to my dream jc. eew sounds disgusting now to me. wad dream jc. i know all the while i've been keeping my distance from jurong(no offence intended, sorry if u r in jj) but i guess i'll have to start learning how to like that jc. i know some ppl(if they read this) will tsk and shake their heads, and mumble that "ivy, if u get into jurong, then where will i go" or "won't la, u'll sure go this jc and that jc one" etc. come on, get realistic. i've completed 2 subs so far(those dat i'm counting on), and none of them give me any assurance that i may be able to get single digit. let alone 6. okay, now i think 6 is a very high expectation. sorry dad. i dunno where u r gonna hide ur face once the results are out.
i screwed amaths. thatz the only subject i truly have confidence in. yet i lost so many points. lin2 told me that we can afford 40 points to be taken to get min a1.. let's hope that i dun get penalised for more than 35 pts. juz to play safe, if the skul suddenly increase the min mrks for a1. carelessness again. i really dunno how to shake this bad habit off. itz part of me ald. maybe i shall juz score more pts to cover up my carelessness. maybe.
i want prelims to end asap. alright, i noe b4 i realise anything itz ald gone. same goes to my results. i always thought that chem doesnt need memorising. but i was wrong. wad hydrogenation needs Ni catalyst and temp of 200celcius. blah. then production of alcohol fr alkene req phosphoric(V) acid and hi temp and pressure. tell me if u dun memorise how r u gonna ans? so my chem result is still not guaranteed. still an unknown. c lit definitely gonna kill me. geog not any better. bio needs memory work as well. so see, the facts above show that amaths and chinese are the two subjects that i can rely on, and yet i cant fully rely on them now. how sad this is.
i shall go baq and study my chem. not say study. remember those that i will forget aft the exam, and remember them again for o'lvls. great.
