some1 said sth classical today.
"what is power? power is nth without control."
enlightening speech. i always wanted to be powerful. q funny the way i phrase it. laugh all u want. i like to gain control of almost everything i can. i trusted almost no one, cox i hv diz trust phobia which followed me for so long. and then i lost control q frequently recently. it is true. power is nothing without control. i should learn to control myself more. more. more. stop blaming ppl. the prob lies with myself. mr stupidity, u r right. i was childish. but dat doesnt mean u r right abt wad u did. i will rmb dat. i will.
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i m very touched when i first opened my tagboard today. itz like a sudden beam of light amidst the dark. i guess my world fell into partial darkness with lotz of reflections from the past since the kws visit, and seeing the tags really gave me warmth. itz like a spark in the middle of cold, isolated winter. so many tags over a night! a very sincere thankew to everybody who visited my blog and tagged... i feel like replying to each and every tag!
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thank you to all of you out there who bother to care wad is going on wif me, it really made me feel better. i know dat i'm not alone in this. thank you. did i give u all an impression dat i was very agitated? well quite so, but not anymore. i mean, i get to see everyone more clearly, itz quite obvious who and wad they really are since youth day. somehow i feel better; at least i m able to c wadz beyond their masks. itz pretty obvious, i would say.
thank you everybody for putting in your best during funfair.. though we din manage to be the top class, but in my opinion, we already are. we worked as groups, giving our best services, and together we stand, solid as a class. i'm very proud to be 413-er. wad about u?
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i shall dedicate the rest of my entry to those who care abt me...
jamie:
i did not tell a white lie. i may mask my words in skul, but in blogs, i m myself. really thank you for ur unselfishness, and concern. it helped.
yao:
i still prefer to call u xinyi, but since u used yao in tagging i shall continue with it. i like working wif u, esp these stuff dat involve sacrifices. dun misunderstand me, i'm juz saying u r a true person, willing to help without asking for anything in return. sorry abt the butterfly thing... i guess i m perfectionist.. or rather i couldnt tell u exactly wad i wanted. u were there the whole day.. din take any shifts.. i'm really grateful for dat.
hannah:
*smiles* *shake head* dunno wad to say to u... cox i believe blog is the indirect reflection of itz owner. so if u think ur blog is kiddy~~ well, arent u like dat as well? lol.. yeah, we'll c rainbow aft a storm, datz wad god told noah rite? and god doesnt lie.. so letz make rainbow happen then! thx for dropping by...
sam:
i read ur letter, i think u r a gr8 fren! i think ur best fren is so fortunate! though there may be some misunderstanding between us, u r still willing to work wif me, and i m so grateful for that. really. thx for ur letter and ur tags, and surely u'll make a gr8 fren. juz dun forget me when u go to canada.
for the sake of yao, i shall include shawn yue for her.. since you like him so much. anyway he is in my blog haha.
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tmr got nat anthem, so sick of dat stupid song. i m not insulting anything or anybody.. juz dat i get so sick of it cox i have to go to skul early every mon bcox of it.
and i know dongxiang visited my blog. wow.*shivers* anyway i dun mind her reading wad i feel, if she wants to. we read hers also rite?
itz fair play.
