i have a feeling dat diz entry is gonna be q long.
i'm very sure i'm gonna remember foa. my first and only arts fest in my life. it was simply too gr8 an experience for me. as i m a performer myself, i didnt get to watch the concert. matinee as well as evening show. it was quite sad actually, not being able to see wad others put up, but according to the audience's comments on our matinee show, one word - great. and i was so happy and touched and relieved to hear that. at least all the practices are worth it.
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band was supposed to report at 2pm yesterday. yanzhen told me dat there was a band exhibition in suntec and a euphonium performance, so i actually set off at 1040 IN BAND U. come to think of it, band u is very pretty actually. i dun look so skinny in band u. i shall skip the part of us having lunch in suntec. when we reached the exhibition area, i was so stunned by the instrus on display! the eupho especially. itz the three-valve eupho, gold plated on the valves and slides. it looked so pro and gorgeous.and itz very huggable too. haha a good thing dat i always bring my mouthpiece back, so i had my mouthpiece wif me at dat time, and i get to try out the eupho. pro means pro. i sounded diff in dat instru. my tone was warm and round, exactly wad a eupho sound should be. cant tell u how elated i was. dat wasnt the peak yet. while trying out other instrus, we heard something which sounded like a eupho, so we rushed over to the other corner, and POOF! itz riki mcdonnell with his besson eupho! all three of us - yanzhen, yanting and me, were somehow rooted on the spot. riki's tone was purely eupho, warm and big and round. i dun think yanzhen can even reach that.
we were so engrossed in the exhibition, dat we actually reached late. banders were supposed to report at 1345, but all of us reached skul at abt 1400! it didnt affect our playing though. perhaps itz riki's influence, the three of us suddenly sounded diff, as if inspired to play like him. i like his solos, esp the salut the amour. oh man, dat was really great.
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back to foa. as ours was the last item of the day, we waited for nearly 2 hrs in the band room. while waiting, we sort of played many things, seventh nite of cox, then salut the amor, phantom of the opera etc. everybody was having fun. then we went for matinee. then matinee ended. wow. everybody then had dinner, and waited for the evening show - the grand finale of the day. haha, wyquin took alot of candid pics of us eating and sleeping... box wyquin. i was having mixed feelings abt the evening performance. one side of me dying to perform, dying for the concert; the other side of me didnt want the concert to start so soon, cox once it started, it would soon end. seeing the sun set within minutes, and the sky darkened with it, cars zooming past dunearn road, my heart became more and more heavier. inside audi was CO, dance and so on; outside audi was complete silence. the only sound came from the traffic. i witnessed a small accident, but both drivers soon came into good terms with each other. how would our seventh nite sound like, i wondered. not uncertain, juz anticipating. as we-me and wyquin, were walking baq to band room, CO was heading to their holding area. they finished their performance. then i saw kaiying. she was very gan dong, and once she saw me, she burst out in tears. i hugged her, and at the same time, wondered wad my reaction would be like aft the nite. xinying and siheng both voiced their regards to band, thankyou. i knew very sure, the night has started, and it was going to end very, very soon.
surely enough, the runner came and called for us. the time has come. and in split seconds, we were on stage. i realized i wasnt sitting in the middle, as i used to be. it din matter. ms chong entered, and seventh nite began. gorgeous. at sax and eupho solos, i nearly broke out in tears. at stringendo, i heart beat with the increasing tempo, i played with everything i had, everything i could. i was panting and sweating aft the piece.
'when you believe' really reminded me of finale. the choir first sang the chorus, i saw the time when we were in SCH, istana performance and many more. and dat song would be my last song with the band. a sense of finality. at bar 66, i could not hold back anymore. dat was it. finale. choir sang their hearts out, and we played ours out too. nobody held back. and the night was over. all left would be memories, and tears. of cox, laughters.
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i was relieved dat the night was over, at the same time wished dat it nvr started. i'm always this kind of person, who will only miss things dat are gone. i dun have any regrets, i know i played my best. besides syf, diz was the best. but things would have been better if only someone else was there, watching me perform. yet again, i know this is absurd. but i cant help feeling the loss, cox itz my last concert ever in nanyang. of cox he couldnt come, but juz cant help feeling bad dat he could go for dat person's concert but not mine.
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itz indeed very long. i salute those who manage to read until diz line.
