fri is over. finally.
i remember i hoped for this day, but i din feel so good on fri. partly bcox i realized i actually care for band. oh wells, itz not up to me to say anythg now. not surprisingly, those dat i miss in band are none other than my instru and my sectionmates. of cox including my so-called juniors. i dun want to call them juniors actually, cox i feel so uncomfortable exerting superiority. i mean, we are in the same section, so we should be called frens, instead of seniors and juniors. datz y i told kexin not to call me senior. it really makes me feel awkward. band is over, i feel relieved, at the same time, sad.i miss my eupho-she has been with me for 1 1/2 yrs, working so hard with me, thru syf, band fiest, istana perf, and lastly, foa. itz always sad to say goodbye.
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thank you thank you everybody who cared for me. a big THANKYEW for all your presents and wishes. i treasure them by heart. yeo kexin i tell u, dun ever be freaked k? u r a eupho, so u'll shine. i believe datz possible.hey thanks so so much for ur present. itz really heartwarming. in fact,all the notes and presents were like candles, providing light in the dark for me. thank you yanzhen, yanting, mellissa, kexin and shenyi. u ppl are really gr8 ppl. hey, kexin, if you r reading, your note is so cute! i put it on my desk, so dat i can always c it when i m stressed. haha, getting prelims in one month's time.i nvr stopped laughing whenever i see your card. thanks. i guess at certain times, we juz let our emotions flow, dun hold back. we'll feel better without any restrictions or burdens at heart. yang kexin, haha, itz fun calling ur name, i'll come back and look for u.. so BEWARE!
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went to do cca cip on sat. met marlene, so jamie, shenyi, me and mar did cip together. goodness, the ppl were so reluctant and ignorant. well, cant blame them aft the nkf saga. most of the time, when trust is betrayed, itz very hard to be regained. trust, itz such a fragile substance.
aft that i joined in the search for kaishi's bdae pres. sigh, itz not much of a happy journey. partly my fault too. things might have been diff if i continue to put on a smiley face-even though i didnt feel like it. ppl judge others by their expressions, so juz how many understand wad i really think? how i really feel? worse still, when u dont see the face, can u tell what the person is thinking of? i doubt u can. let me make this clear here, though i know itz q unlikely 4 anyone involved to read diz entry, i wasnt pissed dat day. if u are unhappy abt me not saying anythg, so be it. i did say, but no one listens, and wadever they say is nice wasnt so satisfying.wad do u expect me to do? smile and nod my head and say itz "yeah, very nice"? would u do the same if u were me? so i juz walked away to other places to check out other stuff, and datz wad they interpreted as "pissed off". good.
i dun understand how some ppl can kan4 lian3 se4. i dunno, cox i cant stand it when some ppl give me lian3 se4. put it straight, i m offended to a certain extent. yeah, i m always offended, as some ppl would say. i cant understand why certain ppl can be so re4 qing2 at this moment, and then so cold the next second. i have done nothg wrong. ok fine if u feel like throwing me lian3 se4 then might as well stay away from me. if u r not moving, fine. i move.
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zpop started off quite leng. the items were not catchy at first. we were so bored, until jj performed. wow we literally sprang onto our feets, and started cheering. then screaming. he was so sweet when he sang the "bei feng chui guo de xia tian" with jin sha. they were really cute together. jj is talented. then 183 club. we started screaming again. haha. i think aft that i din really have voice ald.
