OMG!! tmr is last paper le! haix... tonite gotta go an xtra mile to get everything into my mind...
y m i always inferior to others? i realised no matter how hard i worked, i m nvr the 1st in anything... i'm not the prettiest, not the smartest, dont top the class in any subject diz yr, even cant study as fast as others! wadz wrong with my brain?? stupidity.
saw my frens on fs, and they told me abt their feelings baq there. had i not accepted the scholarship, i would face everything they face rite now. i wont be any diff fr them. iznt that good? then i wont be a lone ranger here, striving for myself, alone, while others do things together baq there. was the decision wise, i always asked myself. and got the ans as well. i donot regret anything i've done.
even if i were to suffer loneliness in some faraway land, i'll juz get thru and done with it myself.i'm actually very happy dat my frens still tell me wad they did, and wad they r doing and feeling at this very moment. i thot i would be alienated and be in a dist away fr them ald.. bcox i dont share their joke and blablabla. i m very happy, and contented with, to c a few of my frens still msgs me, email me, show me their blog add and stuff. at least i noe, i m not alone anymore. someone out there, sitll thinks of me.
and i'll look forward to meet these people.