ok, i finally summonned all my remaining courage and called dad. well, i think he's super disappointed with me. i wont be surprised if he is. i'll be surprised if he's not.
how did i land into diz mess, i wonder. haiz, therez really nobody to blame, except for me, myself, my foolishness and dumbness. really. other ppl commit stupid mistakes all the time; i'm juz the opposite. i m quite careful, but once i m careless, i'm in trouble.
i dunno who reads diz blog, and i dun care. but whoever who reads diz can juz ignore me.
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wad have i done 4 the past few months and years? i m so disappointed with myself, so pissed with myself. well, i've done something wrong, and i admit it. but wad follows diz is disappointment.
i dun wish to talk anymore.
let me continue to be the shadow, at least for now.