Oh, why does it have to take this turn, I wonder.
Are you dense, or are you dim?
Like hello!! Words like that can hurt, in case you don't realize! But of course, you've never thought one fine day you'll be understood, have you? You've never thought one fine day it'll all come to light, have you?
Mayhap you enjoyed the attention, mayhap you have gotten tired of the ambiguity. And you decided to desert it altogether. Then STOP whatever you are doing. What is with pulling the strings towards yourself and suddenly just let it slack. Like the kite at the end of the string, I'm suddenly detached.
What is this. I'm not a kite you can control with strings. Pulling strings don't work on me, especially not when I am PISSED.
You know what? Go fly kite. FINE BY ME.
Maybe you find me a spoiled brat, an unreasonable girl who throws tantrums as and when she wants. But you know what? FINE BY ME.
Uh just go fly kite.
Out of sheer boredom (and of course, procrastination) I clicked on Why's link in hope to see what new installments she has in her life over at Melbourne, just to find myself being
tagged. I'm required to do what she asked me to on her blog. Being a nice girl as I always am, I shall do as she said.
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1. If your lover betrays you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
To revenge is extremely narrow-minded and stupid, but that will be the end of us.
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be the happiest girl on earth (read : to have all my dreams come true)
3. What is your dream?
I dream for more wealth since love has turned its back on me.
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Give my family half, and the other half to buy every single pair of pretty shoes, every single pair of pretty earrings, every single piece of pretty tops, every...
(assumption : I haven't got married and I don't have kids yet.)
5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
Maybe. But that will be the day I turn lesbian (which is SO highly unlikely).
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved (of course). Yes, I may be selfish in this sense. But I'm tired of serving my love on a plate called 'faith' just to be rejected in the end.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I will never wait. It's either "you love me", or "you love me not". There is no such thing as "you'll love me after a certain period of time".
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Turn my head, flick my hair, and strut away in search for a better tree.
9. Do you think the world would be better off if everyone has the same religion/ethnicity/ etc?
Of course not.
10. You see a 50 year old man entwine arms with a girl about the age of 20+ and find out they are gf/bf. What are your first thoughts?
"He must be damn rich."
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time.?
A working mother. (IF I'm married by the time I'm 30)
12. What's your fear?
To regret.
13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
"OMG what time is it now?"
14. Would you give all in a relationship?
No I will not.
15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
It never happens. My heart is whole and there is no such thing as falling for two people at the same time.
16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Time will allow me to forgive eventually, but to forget will take more than eternity.
17. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
At this point in time, singlehood is the best choice.
18. After breaking up, can you still be friends with your bf/gf?
It is only when you never really loved, or you do not mind being the one who constantly sacrifices, that returning to status quo is possible. If my love has been betrayed, my trust misplaced, then there is no way I am going back.
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Now I'm supposed to tag six people, but I won't. If you think you wanna repost this, you are most welcome to do so, as I did (:
The weather has been erratic lately. So erratic that one moment I thought I was going to sublime, and the next moment I had to jump off my bed to rescue my laptop from a rough storm that began with no warning.
The storm started at 4 in the morning, and threatened to flood my room and short circuit my laptop. Because of that horrendous downpour, I went for lab with just a bare 4 hours of sleep, and made it the second most catastrophic lab ever - just second to the crystal lab fiasco.
So erratic was the weather, so disturbed was I.
But the paradox is now a paradox no more. For I have made up my mind.
What impaired my judgement is now long gone. I am myself once more. A shocking element of surprise aided the decision-making process.
And so it is as clear as the weather today, what I will be doing next. Yes, no prize for getting it right (maybe you didn't get it right either), MUG. I'm sorry for sounding like a big time no-life nerd, but that's what I am becoming, and that's what I will be for the next 5 weeks to come.
It's so good to finally see the sun again.
Although one of my tops disappeared in the wind with the hanger.
